10.40. Big Brother. Tea. 1 Sugar.
Although I believed that tonight would be different, it really wasn't. I thought that maybe tonight would go to plan and that for the first time in a long time, we would get through one evening without hurting each other. Of course not. I spent forever doing my make up and it was just perfect. There is never any point anymore.

Watching Big Brother in my room on my spinning chair. Have been out for a smoke and not feeling too awake to be perfectly honest. Head is a bit misty from crying. And other things i'm sure. I watch Big Brother every single day and get upset when i miss an episode because i find it so entertaining. Although I wouldn't say I was an actual BB fan, I have found myself falling into that category for the final season. I don't think I could go on there because you can tell it really does mess with people's heads. The show exaggerates real life problems and i'm sure everything in the house really seems like a big deal at the time.



"Whenever I'm feeling sad or down in the dumps, I just think about that woman who got her face ripped off by a chimpanzee, and I think, I could have been that woman."
- Josie BB 10

After coming home and eating chocolate biscuits and drinking tea, i don't feel as caned as I did. Therefore I must go and read my book in order to make sure I am tired for bed.

Night
J x